I miss you so much it hurts… I mean, it really physically hurts.
I
feel like there’s a weight pressing down on my chest and I find it hard
to breath. My heart literally hurts… like beating is becoming too hard
for it to do.
Maybe it is… too hard to do because you’re not here anymore.
I have always appreciated life and the world but all the colors are gone now.
I
look at the sunset and see nothing but the ugly bleeding of the sky
rather than the beautiful mixture of colors I used to love.
I
look at the sky and see horror of the vast space… the emptiness and the
loneliness, rather than the beauty of its changing colors.
I look at other people and see a crowd of confused restless people instead of the beauty of their warmth.
I
just don’t have the will to wake up every morning because I know it’s
just another day. Another day which I need to survive only to do it all
over again the next day and I don’t even know why I have to. I don’t see
the point.
I
constantly have to remind myself that I have to get up and walk on. I
constantly have to push myself to function. I constantly have to force
myself to just go on and it is exhausting. I just don’t get why I have
to be here if you are not.
I’m tired. I’m just tired of living.
I
have never asked for much in my life and God know I have never taken
much. I always give what I can and I survived on what is simply enough.
All I wanted was to have you. I didn’t even ask for a great life, just a
good one.
I didn’t ask for much… I just asked for a life with you.
You took and owned my heart . You never gave it back.
The ink of my pen is my blood. Every drop heals my wound. Even though you can tie my body but you can't tie my soul...I write what I want to write... no sugar coats,no romanticism... what I say is what I feel...I can't just talk about the pretty things in life. There's a lot of ugly things and in betweens. I think age is making me more honest and comfortable with my thoughts.
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