HappenEnding

The ink of my pen is my blood. Every drop heals my wound. Even though you can tie my body but you can't tie my soul...I write what I want to write... no sugar coats,no romanticism... what I say is what I feel...I can't just talk about the pretty things in life. There's a lot of ugly things and in betweens. I think age is making me more honest and comfortable with my thoughts.

Wednesday, 30 April 2014

LeeSsang Gary

Kang Gary Quotes | LeeSsang

Here are some quotes of Kang Gary. His songs are written in his native tongue so this are contextual translations rather than direct translations. That means the songs meaning and context were taken into consideration. This is also written in the American language that takes into consideration popular culture.

This is dedicated to one of the most prolific songwriter in Korea. His raps are poetry and his style remains unmatched.

Kang Gary Memorable Quotes

I would rather take the pain than let you go – Voices
Is this love? It hurts to have it, it’s lonely when it’s gone

Repetitions of ups and down, repetitions of joy and sadness, repetitions of love and separation. My life goes round and round – Remembrance

In the end, everything disappears… it will go back to the way it was in the beginning – The Pursuit of Happiness

I’m over 33 years old but in front of my mother, I’m still a child – The Pursuit of Happiness

My dreams became your future - The girl who can’t say goodbye, the boy who can’t leave

The world is the same. It’s us who changed - The girl who can’t say goodbye, the boy who can’t leave

Imagine how happy this world would have been if love is something that you can earn… if everyone gets the love they want - The girl who can’t say goodbye, the boy who can’t leave

Can the love that binds shatter you into pieces? - The girl who can’t say goodbye, the boy who can’t leave

We can’t win against our own greed - The girl who can’t say goodbye, the boy who can’t leave

The desire and screams of people wanting me, those are empty sounds. I know that if I show my real self to you, you won’t take me - Gary And Gilee 3rd Story

I need to ride a Bentley for people to acknowledge me. I need to be worth a million for people to think I have value - Gary And Gilee 3rd Story

Some people may bash me but my parents are happy, that’s all that matters – The Pursuit of Happiness

You may hurt and bleeding now but a better day will come. Hard work will never betray you.

We’ve been trying so hard to fight for our relationship but at this point, all I really want is to see you smile – Words I Want to Say to You

“Why is my life like this?” Those words are just excuses - Someday

I am thankful you never let me go but it’s time for you to leave… smile the way you once did with me.
It hurts and heals then hurts again.- Someday

Kang Gary Funny Lines
I usually just like whoever likes me – Running Man (SNSD Episode)
You know I’m not good with reason.

Miss You Letter

I miss you so much it hurts… I mean, it really physically hurts.

I feel like there’s a weight pressing down on my chest and I find it hard to breath. My heart literally hurts… like beating is becoming too hard for it to do.

Maybe it is… too hard to do because you’re not here anymore.

I have always appreciated life and the world but all the colors are gone now.  
I look at the sunset and see nothing but the ugly bleeding of the sky rather than the beautiful mixture of colors I used to love.

I look at the sky and see horror of the vast space… the emptiness and the loneliness, rather than the beauty of its changing colors.
I look at other people and see a crowd of confused restless people instead of the beauty of their warmth.

I just don’t have the will to wake up every morning because I know it’s just another day. Another day which I need to survive only to do it all over again the next day and I don’t even know why I have to. I don’t see the point.

I constantly have to remind myself that I have to get up and walk on. I constantly have to push myself to function. I constantly have to force myself to just go on and it is exhausting. I just don’t get why I have to be here if you are not.

I’m tired. I’m just tired of living.

I have never asked for much in my life and God know I have never taken much. I always give what I can and I survived on what is simply enough. All I wanted was to have you. I didn’t even ask for a great life, just a good one.

I didn’t ask for much… I just asked for a life with you.

You took and owned my heart . You never gave it back.  
 

A VERY SHORT LESSON IN PSYCHOLOGY

1-when a person laughs too much, even on stupid things, that person is sad deep inside

2-when a person sleeps a lot, that person is lonely

3-when a person talks less and if he talks fast,that person is keeping a secret

4-when a person can't cry, that person is weak

5-when a person eats in an abnormal way, that person is in tension

6-when a person cries on little things, that person is softhearted

7-when someone asks about you although that someone is busy, he/she really loves you

*please be sensitive to the people around you, so you will not

Depression

Depression is a never ending black hole.
Often I feel like I'm on the edge trying to climb out but the black hole is thick and it's weighing me down.
I see reality and I want to be in it but the force of the black holes increasing in strength, I know I need help.
I know I have to be stronger and move fast before the black hole swallows me.
Sometimes it's a fight for my life..........

That day

They watch you cry.
You pull out your knife. 
They left you feeling like you could die.
You feel like it's time to end your life.

You cut your wrists.
You change your mind you crawl to the door.
You should've never done this.
The blood pours.

You scream for help.
No one hears.
You sit there,you whimper and yelp.
Finally,no more tears .

They had their time to play.
They will never forget what they caused you to do that day...

What Am I Doing Here

I left so I could forget you
but somehow, I brought you with me.

I closed my eyes so I wouldn't see you
but somehow, you are more present in the midst of the darkness in my mind.

I started anew so I could live without you
but somehow, I died...

LEARN TO WALK THE ROAD ALONE

I always like walking in the rain so no one can see me crying because i want  be a beautiful sun for person around me .
people cry not because they are weak,it's because they've been too strong for too long 
I don't understand why DESTINY allowed some people to meet...
when there's no way for them to be TOGETHER .
its not the GOOD BYE that hurts,  but the flashback that follows .

I Will Be

I will 

... wake up and know that I am special 

... walk with my head held high

... love myself with passion, respect and gentleness

... learn to never compromise

... know that I am special

... be happy

Just not today

Friday, 25 April 2014

Radical and Controversial Idea About Love

Everyone has an innate need to feel important. That’s a universal truth. That is up there in the ranks of ‘we all need to eat’ and ‘we all need to sleep’. That is non-debatable and anyone who will say otherwise is absolutely stup!d.

That is why people “fall in love” with others. When someone makes them feel important and needed, they instinctively get attracted because their need is being met. They get the attention that they want, the knowing that there is someone else that gives a fuckk that they are alive, that in the billions and billions of people in this world, there is someone that would like to spend time with them over everyone else.

No one falls in love with someone that makes them feel like a worthless piece of shit, right? “Love” always begins with a smile that melts hearts or a hello that was just a little softer than other hellos or a glance that lasted a second too long. It is always when someone makes you feel special.

Then you stay. You stay because you need a witness to your life. You need someone there to make you feel things you do don’t go unnoticed.

I don’t know if it is romantic but I do know it’s still about the self and not the other person.

It is vanity… not love.

Then there is the progression of it.

There is ONLY ONE FORM OF LOVE, the unconditional one. Cut my arms, take all my money, beat me up black and blue and I still love you. That is what love is -  completely unselfish, understanding, beyond stupidity. Anything below that is bullshit. There is no other kind of Love.

Platonic love, parental love, romantic love... those are labels we give our relationships so we can compartmentalize our relationships. Love, however, has online kind. It's the relationships that has different kinds.

Love doesn’t fuckin’ end even if the other person doesn’t return the favor. The term ‘i’ve fallen out of love’ or ‘i don’t love you anymore’  is a complete contradiction and utter shit. If you stopped loving someone, you never loved that person at all. Love is forever, no ifs, no buts. You love someone once, you love that person forever, even if it is painful, even if it sounds stupid.

God did. God actually created us, gave us a beautiful world, gave us a beautiful life. Then we fucked him up. Then he retaliated by giving us His son to die for us. Shit. No way will I do that. I can’t imagine someone beating me up and still loving them after that. I honestly don’t think anyone is capable of that. Someone throws their shit at me all bets are off.

When people think and/or say they love someone, do they really know what they are saying? Or is it another kind of feeling that they simply call love?

I think it is not love – I don’t know it is but it’s not love and I can only hope for people to not adjust the meaning of love just to make themselves feel better. No one is capable of loving someone else — except maybe a parent to their children.

Sunday, 20 April 2014

Something...about love

I like you but I don’t know if I love you. Maybe you can accept me in my uncertainty. - Yano
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Take: You’re so strong.
Nanami: Sometimes I feel it is useless.
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Nanami: I think I’m crazy.
Take: No, you’re just in love.
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It feels like I’ve lived my whole life to find you. - Yano
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Nanami: You lost the one you love but I am here and I love you even if you don’t love me. Maybe it balances it out. A zero sum equation.
Yano: It’s not zero sum equation. The scale weighs heavily on my favour.
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Yano: I want a guarantee that you won’t leave me.
Nanami: I won’t die on you.
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Getting ditched is better than someone dying on you. - Yano
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There’s a difference between faith and denying the truth. - Take
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The other one seeks love, she gives it. – Take’s Sister
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Give me half your pain. - Nanami
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For you, I don’t mind crying. - Nanami
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I’ll take all the burden from now on. - Take
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It’s a burden I don’t want to let go off. - Nanami
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If two people are drowning, one is the one you love and the other one doesn’t know how to swim. Who would you save? - Yano
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No matter what happens, you have to go on. - Yano

Saturday, 5 April 2014

LeeSsang - The girl who can’t breakup the boy who can’t leave


The girl who can’t breakup the boy who can’t leave
The girl who can’t say good bye                                          
The boy that can’t leave
The two of us are no longer in love
So no no no no no no (x2)

Anywhere together in a 3000 dollar used car
Without a care in the world
Linking arms, committing memories in a photo
Understanding each other in our sleepless nights
My dreams became your future
A pair of beautiful birds chasing each other
A love I could never get enough of
A person I want to meet when reborn
But in front of this thing called time
We can’t win against our greed
Sounds of your tears alone in the bathroom
The suspicious gazes focused on me
As the days go by I think of breaking up again

The sun is hot but your heart is frozen
Whose fault is this? But I love you baby
Everything else is the same but we changed
Whose fault is this? I still love you baby

The girl who can’t say good bye
The boy that can’t leave
The two of us are no longer in love
So no no no no no no (x2)

I’m so busy that I feel guilty
I fill my wallet with money and make some time
Even though I don’t express my love
When I have dinner and watch a movie with you
I hope you might feel better but
I continue to be in debt to my thoughts
As I walk and tease you
it’s all a played out game
Love is passing,
Love and heartbreak are one and the same
Heartbreak takes love and goes away.

The sun is hot but your heart is frozen
Whose fault is this? But I love you baby
Everything else is the same but we changed
Whose fault is this? I still love you baby

The girl who can’t say good bye
The boy that can’t leave
The two of us are no longer in love
So no no no no no no (x2)
Love is passing,
Love and heartbreak are one and the same
Heartbreak takes love and goes away. (x2)

How nice would it be if love
was something that could be earned?
(It’s all a dream, holding your hand)
How nice would it be
if love was something to get by wanting it?
(It’s all a dream but I can’t escape)

The girl who can’t say good bye
The boy that can’t leave
The two of us are no longer in love
So no no no no no no (x2)

Are men caught in love done so because of weakness?
Are men starved of love not worthy of it?
Are men that keep secrets bad men?
Why is it that love changes?